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Kristen, Unfiltered
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Welcome to Kristen, Unfiltered—a safe space where faith meets fire, healing meets honesty, and nothing is sugarcoated. I’m Kristen: a Christian wife, fibro warrior, and mental health survivor living with BPD, OCD, and chronic pain.
Here, I write about the unspoken moments—marriage struggles, faith in the dark, flare-ups, trauma, joy, shame, boundaries, and breakthroughs. This isn’t a highlight reel. This is real life: raw, holy, messy, and mine.
Whether I’m clinging to scripture, navigating a splitting episode, or choosing grace in the middle of grief—you’re invited. No masks. No pretending. Just Jesus, journals, and the journey.
If you're healing through hardship, fighting for peace, or learning to love yourself without conditions—you belong here.
This is my heart, unfiltered.
Let’s walk this road together.
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This Is My Why... 🤍
For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a mom. Not because babies are cute. Not because it's simply "the next step" in life. But because I've always dreamed of building a family. I've dreamed about hearing a tiny heartbeat for the first time. Feeling little kicks. Watching my husband become a father. Reading bedtime stories. Creating family traditions. Watching Christmas through my child's eyes. Growing old surrounded by the family we've built together. I've dreamed
Kristen Scott
Jul 187 min read
Goodbye, 30
I entered my thirties thinking maybe this decade would finally be softer. I had lost the 70 pounds I gained after Nexplanon. I was back around 170 pounds. Back in a size medium and large. My husband had lost weight too. We were both feeling better in our bodies. I was finding myself again. Going to the gym. Lifting weights. Doing yoga. Creating content. Going to church. Living this life, hand In hand. Last July, I celebrated my 30th birthday in Florida. I felt confident. I fe
Kristen Scott
Jul 1516 min read
Sinking
It feels like I am running on empty in a way I cannot fully explain anymore. Tired in a deep way that sleep does not fix. There is this constant cycle I cannot seem to escape. Explaining. Defending. Advocating. Over and over again. Medical systems. Doctors. Appointments. Strangers who do not understand. Forms. Calls. Messages. The city. The government. The paperwork. The waiting. And just when I think I have nothing left to explain, it shows up somewhere else. Now it is not j
Kristen Scott
Jun 163 min read
The Switch
“I was raised to be kind to everyone.” That’s something I used to say a lot growing up. Because I was. I was raised to be kind. Polite. Respectful. Soft spoken. Forgiving. Easygoing. Sit pretty. Stay quiet. Keep the peace. Fit in. Digestible. Growing up, that worked. I was innocent. Naive. The “good girl.” In middle school, I remember my friends thinking it was hilarious to try to get me to say tiny cuss words like “damn” or “hell.” That’s how innocent I was. I didn’t sneak o
Kristen Scott
May 2115 min read
The Loophole Kid
I saw a video the other day that made me laugh because it was SO me as a kid 😂 The mom had two rules: No food in the living room. No tablet in the kitchen. So the little girl laid DIRECTLY between both rooms with her snack and tablet like: “Problem solved.” And honestly? That would have been me. And I’m pretty sure it’ll be my child one day too 😭😂 Not technically breaking the rules. Just finding the tiny loophole between them like: “Well… you didn’t SAY I couldn’t do THIS.
Kristen Scott
May 198 min read
Lumbar Puncture, Blood Patch, Diamox and A Rollator
🥀🥀🥀 Living with one invisible illness is hard enough. Living with both Fibromyalgia and Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension at the same time honestly feels like hell some days because they constantly feed off each other, overlap, and make each other worse. And one of the hardest emotional parts is there is currently no cure for either one. People hear diagnoses separately on paper. But living inside the body experiencing both at once is completely different. Fibromyalgia
Kristen Scott
May 135 min read
The body keeps the score...But so does survival.
🥀🥀🥀 “Cause what goes around comes all the way back around…” I chose one of my favorite Justin Timberlake songs for this trend because something about it perfectly matched the feeling behind what I was making. This trend is basically taking the hardest seasons of your life and framing them like your own personal horror movie list. The experiences that shaped you. The moments that changed your life forever. The versions of yourself you had to survive. And when I started putt
Kristen Scott
May 133 min read
Living With Pressure They Could Finally See
There are certain weeks in life that divide everything into a before and after. This was one of them. Over the last several years, I have constantly been told some version of: “It’s probably just stress.” “It’s probably your fibromyalgia.” “It’s probably anxiety.” “It’s probably exhaustion.” And to be fair, I DO have fibromyalgia. I DO deal with chronic pain. I DO deal with fatigue and neurological symptoms. But deep down, I knew something else was happening too. Right before
Kristen Scott
May 99 min read
My emotional support octopus 🐙
My First Lighthearted Blog...So enjoy lol >>>> Some days are just… off. Nothing catastrophic. Nothing dramatic. Just one of those days where everything is mildly irritating and slightly inconvenient. You wake up late. Your shower is rushed. You are already behind. Your phone is blowing up. Legal stuff. Medical stuff. Calls. Appointments. Stress. You know… just casually carrying the weight of adulthood before noon. One of those days where you are not crying… But you are defini
Kristen Scott
Apr 183 min read
Faith Didn't Fail Me; My Nervous System Was Stuck in Survival
God gave you a nervous system. He designed it. Wired every connection. Made it capable of peace, joy, rest, and love. But nobody teaches you how to use it. For a long time, I thought faith alone should fix everything. I prayed. I read Scripture. I went to church. I gave my anxiety to God again and again. And yet… my body still felt like it was bracing for impact. My mind believed God had me. My heart trusted Him. But my nervous system still felt like I was in danger. And that
Kristen Scott
Apr 173 min read
Emoting in a Low Battery Body
Kristen, Unfiltered I saw a video today about people who forget to emote unless prompted. And I immediately thought… That is me. But the more I sat with it, the more I realized something deeper. I do not think I stopped feeling. I think I just started emoting in a low battery body. Because emoting takes energy. Showing emotion outwardly Facial expressions Tone of voice Big reactions Social engagement All of it takes energy. And lately… energy is something I do not always have
Kristen Scott
Apr 83 min read
Embers within
There is something about a fire that is very comforting to me... Nothing can put me in a quiet, reflective trance quite like a fire can. Something about watching it... The stillness. The warmth. The glow. The heat. Ir feels a lot like healing. Today I burned trash outside... Some boxes from our Sam's monthly stock up. The flames were strong at first. Loud. Bright... Consuming everything quickly. Then slowly… the fire died down. Or at least, that is what I thought. I stood the
Kristen Scott
Apr 55 min read
What Feminine Energy Really Is
“A woman has to be soft, calm, and feminine.” Yes. Femininity includes softness. But that is not the full picture... Not even close. If feminine energy were only soft, then explain: Childbirth. There is nothing soft about bringing life into the world. It is pain. It is endurance. It is strength beyond words. Hours. Sometimes days. Bodies stretching. Bones shifting. Breathing through waves of pain. And then, after all of that, holding life in your arms. That is feminine energy
Kristen Scott
Mar 282 min read
From Girl Next Door to Chronic Illness: And the Confidence in Between
I saw a post that said, “Makeup doesn’t change the way people treat you.” Then it cut to her without makeup. “Don’t tell no lies.” And it got me thinking. Because honestly… that has been my experience too. Not just with makeup. But with hair. Outfits. Weight. Confidence. Energy. And especially living with chronic illness. There is something I have slowly come to understand over the years. The way the world treats me has changed. But so has the way I show up in the world. Grow
Kristen Scott
Mar 284 min read
The Energy Shift:
I used to be the warm one. The smiling one. The compliment strangers in line one. The girl who made small talk with anyone. The one who made people feel comfortable immediately. I had girl next door energy. Soft. Warm. Welcoming. Open. And honestly, working in customer service shaped that even more. When you work in sales, when you work in restaurants, when you work directly with people, you learn quickly that part of your job is being warm. Being approachable. Being friendly
Kristen Scott
Mar 2519 min read
When My Brain Starts Spiraling
My Go To Resets for Anxiety, Panic, and OCD Loops (in case you happen to be an anxious girly too) If your brain spirals into anxiety, panic, or OCD thought loops… you’re not the only one. These are some of the things that personally help me reset my nervous system when my brain starts getting loud. Learning about anxiety and OCD changed a lot for me because it helped me stop believing every thought my brain produces. --- 1. Box Breathing When anxiety or panic hits, your breat
Kristen Scott
Mar 216 min read
The One Who Stayed
There are characters you love... And then there are characters who feel like they grew up with you. Since I was 10 years old... Xander Harris was one of those characters for me... Buffy's Side kick No powers. No prophecy. No spotlight. Just a boy who stayed. He stayed when it was scary. He stayed when he felt small. He stayed when everyone else had something he didn’t. And somehow, that made him one of the most important people in the entire story. Because when it mattered mo
Kristen Scott
Mar 213 min read
Cheating Doesn’t Start With a Kiss
It feels like everywhere you look today, entertainment is filled with cheating. Every show... Every storyline... Every plot twist... It feels like you cannot escape it. And I did not want that. I just wanted one show... One safe show. One relationship I could watch without constantly bracing for betrayal... So I decided to watch something a little older, like the rest of my comfort shows from the early 2000's. I thought maybe if I go back a little, it would be different... So
Kristen Scott
Mar 2115 min read
The harsh truths marriage teaches you
Marriage is beautiful. It is sacred. It is companionship, laughter, inside jokes, late night talks, shared dreams, and building a life with someone who chooses you. But marriage also teaches you truths that no one really prepares you for. Not because people are trying to hide them. But because some lessons can only be learned by living them. Marriage is one of the greatest blessings God gives us, but it is also one of the greatest mirrors. It reveals things in us that we neve
Kristen Scott
Mar 144 min read
When Emotions Become Disorders...
What if instead of emotions running Riley’s brain… They were mental illnesses? What if the glowing control panel wasn’t just feelings. What if it was a brain trying to survive? Let’s imagine it... — Joy; ADHD Joy moves fast. Talks fast. Thinks fast. Jumps to the next idea before finishing the first one. She needs stimulation. She panics when things get slow. She struggles when nothing exciting is happening. If Joy represented ADHD, she would be the hyperactive energy that tri
Kristen Scott
Mar 144 min read
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