The moon that speaks for me 🌗

I’ve been thinking about getting another tattoo lately...just one small, simple symbol.

🌗 The Last Quarter Moon.

It’s subtle. Quiet. Half-lit, half-shadowed. But when I look at it... I see me.

I see duality.

I see the two sides of myself that often feel like they’re at war:

The contradiction, the push and pull, the light and the dark.

🌕 The girl with a heart for God

🌑 The girl shaped by survival

🌕 The Christian

🌑 The street-smart fighter

🌕 The healed

🌑 The hurting

🌕 The head-logical, grounded

🌑 The heart-emotional, raw

🌕 The light

🌑 The dark

🟡 The need to get it right

⚫ The fear I never will

🌕 The discipline

🌑 The disorder

🌕 The strength people see

🌑 The pain they don’t

🌕 The woman who gets up and keeps going

🌑 The body that begs her to stay in bed

🌕 The smile that says “I’m okay”

🌑 The ache that says “I’m not”

🌕 The woman I’m becoming

🌑 The woman I used to be

This moon phase is halfway between full illumination and complete darkness. It’s the moment where release begins- when we let go of what we’ve outgrown and make space for what’s next. That’s exactly what healing from Mental Illnesses and walking with a Chronic Illness and Jesus has felt like:

Not erasing the darkness -but letting the light coexist with it.

Letting grace live where guilt used to.

Letting God into the shadowed parts too.

And also?

I’m a Cancer.

A moon-ruled sign. Emotional, intuitive, nurturing -and wildly impacted by the phases of the moon. So this tattoo wouldn’t just be symbolic. It would be cosmic. Personal. Honest.

I already have two tattoos, and a whole list of ideas I’ve been saving- and this one? It’s going on the list.

One day, I’ll get it. And when I do, I’ll know exactly why.

Because healing isn’t about pretending I’ve only ever been one thing.

It’s about honoring the complexity of who I’ve become.

Being at peace with being a paradox.

I’ve spent so much of my life believing I had to choose:

Be soft or be strong.

Be emotional or be logical.

Be worldly or be holy.

Be broken or be whole.

But this tiny symbol - this half-lit moon -reminds me that I can be both. That God uses the tension between the two to shape something sacred.

It’s not about being perfect.

It’s about being real.

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“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” John 1:5

Kristen, Unfiltered Xo 💋